About two years ago, we made the move. I saw a job in Wilmington, applied and by the grace of God was offered it. It was perfect for me and I was perfect for it.
We lived a block from the beach for two months and then found our dream home.
It’s hard, still, to believe we get to live here. The house is our dream home. We are 15 minutes to the beach. We are only a few miles from the Intracoastal Waterway.
It all seems perfect but…
There are times when I think I’ve been given too much.
There are times when I’m not so sure I deserve the life what we have. It feels too good to be true.
I don’t know why on earth I feel that way. We’ve worked really really hard to get where we are. We try to do the right thing, always. We love fiercely and help out where we can.
Sometimes, though, I can feel myself sabotaging me. I don’t do what I know to be healthy. I do things that I know are not healthy for me. I put aside goals for things that will not get me where I want to be.
I guess that means I’m human.
The truth is we are all deserving. We are deserving of happiness. We are deserving of wealth. We are deserving of health. We are deserving of deep connections with those we love. We are deserving of a fulfilling vocation. We are deserving of living our dream life. Every day. Always.
This week I looked in the mirror and decided that I deserve every good that is out there. I deserve all of the things I describe above. But I have to be a willing participant in getting to the things that are important to me. I can’t just sit on the sidelines and wish. I have to go and do.
The result? Well, it’s only been two days but I’ve been to the gym. I got myself on a plan to change the way I eat. And I’ve slept through the night for the last two nights. I think we can all agree that we ALL deserve a good nights sleep.
We get their inch by inch. And you can’t change everything in one day but your beliefs are something you can work on easily. Pick something you want. Create a mantra around it. It can be as simple as “I deserve ________________. ” Then create a plan to get there.