Shaken and Stirred

Some are turning outward, looking for answers on the news or through social media. Some are looking for distractions through humor. It’s one way to deal with all of this darkness.

Some are getting to those long put off projects to take their minds off of their worries.

And then there are those who are turning inward.

I have a friend who goes onto Facebook Live every day at 3:30. Even on the weekends. It’s like visiting with her and actively listening without interruption for a few minutes a day.

Saturday (at least I think it was. Like you, my days are starting to run together), she said something that struck me.

“What do you want your life to look like in two weeks?”

It was a very thought-provoking question. And if we extrapolate that out we could ask ourselves “What do you want your life to look like when this is finally over?” And, trust me, it will be over.

For me? I would like to learn some new things. Maybe develop a talent that I didn’t know I had. I’d like to get into better shape and to become more mindful about moving my body and what I throw down my gullet.

I would like to spend more time seeing how I can be in service, yes, while we are going through this but also after. What are some of the things I can do to leave this world a better place than when I came into it?

I would like to be better read. I know that sounds weird considering my profession but the truth is, given a choice between watching another episode of Revenge (which is spectacularly terrible by the way–and I’m loving it!) and reading, I would always pick screentime. Now, I give it more thought and have been working through the stack on my nightstand.

I want to be a better friend and family member. I think about people all the time but don’t always follow through on those thoughts. Now I have the time and if I’ve learned one thing over the past couple of weeks, it’s that life is wholly unpredictable. Say what you should to the people you love. And make a concerted effort to stay in touch. Over the past couple of weeks, I’ve been able to talk to friends that I have not talked to in a good long while and it feels amazing! Still, though, I have a lot of room for growth.

I want to take this time to organize my life. While I am super organized at school, sometimes that doesn’t translate to my life at home. Now I have time and like it or not, I am home. So I will be a filing machine for the next couple of weeks.

I want to explore those things that interest me. I want to feed my curiosity. I want to develop a better understanding of who I am and what I am capable of.

All of our lives have been completely shaken up. It’s unsettling. It’s upsetting. But it has the potential to be one of the most liberating things to happen in our lifetime. You’re home. There’s nowhere to go. So maybe, just maybe turn inside that scary place called you. Don’t be afraid of it. It’s been with you forever trying to get your attention. Give it what it needs. You may be surprised at the results.

How will you be shaken and where will you end up? It requires a willingness to look inward, be honest and do the work. At the end of all this, it’s up to you.