Every morning, I get up at 5AM. I get myself all gussied up for my littles and I ponder. What will I write about today? Did I already write about that? Maybe I shouldn’t write. Then I usually have a thought that pops into my brain and I’m okay for the morning.
I never thought I would write on the reg. In fact, I probably still don’t think of myself as a writer.
I’ve been in education for almost 18 years and there are still days when I wonder if I am a good teacher or if I’m a warm body who can fill time so kids don’t run roughshod over the school.
Imposter Syndrome. It’s real and if you let it, it can keep you from doing everything you were put on this planet to do.
Imposter syndrome is that feeling that you are getting one over on everybody. You are a con. People see you one way and you are not sure why. You get anxious thinking that at some point everybody is going to find you out and the jig will be up.
Why? Why do we do this to ourselves? Why can’t we see ourselves through the love and light that others see us?
My guess is that it’s a confidence thing. It probably also stems from perfectionism. This idea that life is not a process. It’s a series of events executed with no mistakes.
You know, a lie.
We live in a world where you can be and do whatever it is you want to do. We can work toward any goal big or small that we can think of. That’s pretty powerful.
So why, when we make efforts to mold our lives the way we want it do we throw up roadblocks? Why do we make ourselves think that this is not really who we are and we are getting away with something?
Here’s the thing. You are deserving of everything you have ever worked for in your life. You are deserving of every good that comes your way. You are who you are. And if you don’t like who you are, you have the ability to change it.
I am a writer. I am a teacher. I am somebody who sets goals and achieves them. I am somebody who deserves good things. I am somebody who loves others and tries every day to lift them up. I am somebody.
Please don’t waste another minute thinking that you are not _______________________. You get to fill in that blank.
Know that you are the somebody you want to be. Be the writer. Be the singer. Be the financial wizard. Be the teacher. Be an awesome parent. Be the encourager. Be the stand-up comedian. Be the artist.
Be somebody. And don’t question your place in that spot. You deserve to be there. Just be.