Yesterday was the first day of spring break. To celebrate, I went to breakfast with my husband and had an impromptu walk on the beach when we arrived at said restaurant and found out that not everybody keeps teachers hours.
Being out of my routine, I hadn’t posted to Happy Fix in the morning like I usually do. I wanted to but all of a sudden, I questioned whether or not I had anything of value to say. So I kept putting it off. By the time the afternoon rolled around I had convinced myself that it was too late to post. Nobody would read it. It would be a waste and I didn’t want to waste anybody’s time.
The fact that it nagged at me all day should have told me that I should just do it. It’s not an obligation. It’s a source of joy for me. I enjoy it and it always makes me happy when people read what I’ve written and sometimes share and respond to it.
You know what I did make time for? Candy Crush. That’s right a game that never ends. Here’s my relationship with Candy Crush. I think that I could possibly become bored at some point. I download Candy Crush. I play obsessively for a couple of days. After a few days in a CC Coma, I ask myself what am I getting out of it. I debate that sometimes I just need to turn my brain off. I argue that nothing will get done if I continue to play and I could be reading or doing something more productive. Then I remove Candy Crush and get on with my life.
Yesterday, I was tired. This stretch between Christmas and now has kicked my butt. You know what would have been productive and had a much better result than my Candy Crush Coma? A nap. An hour or two to let my body and my mind rest. I have a great book downloaded on the same device that I play(ed) Candy Crush. I could have done that. I could have practiced my guitar. But that’s not what I made time for.
The good news is it’s only taken me one day to go through a Candy Crush Cycle that used to take me days. And please don’t think I’m judging. We all need our releases. This one just doesn’t provide the kind of self-care I need. I get a crick in my neck. It doesn’t move me forward on things I want to do. It gives me an excuse not to try new things. I allowed it (and yes I am responsible) to give me an excuse not to put myself out there yesterday.
Y’all, I’m back. I’ll be posting through spring break although I’ll be offline next Thursday and Friday. No, I won’t be in a Candy Crush Tournament. I’ll be in NYC visiting my youngest son. And for those of you keeping score, I will be spending my downtime reading. If you have any suggestions, I’m all ears! #HappyFix #SelfCare