I feel like I’m in limbo.
My district has closed schools for students. Faculty and staff, however, can either take accrued leave or come to work.
It’s like working in a retail shop with a guarantee that there will be no customers.
For the most part, I am an extrovert. I love, crave and am energized by the energy of others. On a normal day, the energy in my building could light my city for a year.
When the kiddos aren’t there, not so much.
I took yesterday off to handle some things at home but today, I’m going back in.
I’ll do some tasks that have been around for a while. I’ll see if there are some work from home options for me. But regardless, there will be no littles to teach.
And we don’t know how long this is going to last.
Some schools are taking making their decisions two weeks at a time. Some states are talking about closing for the academic year and some have already done it.
The decisions being made are way above my pay grade. No judgments. I can only look at what’s right in front of me.
I am a teacher with no students.
I think I knew my purpose going into all this. I am a teacher. An educator. I love the connection, the creativity and the coaching that goes along with what I do.
I hate busywork. It’s like the worksheets of professional life. Showing up just so somebody can tick a box.
So I will try to bring value to my time at work. Tidy up my collection. Fix broken books. Maybe read a little so I can make recommendations to my kiddos or do some professional development on my own. I’ll work on my National Board renewal. Read some books a-loud online so my littles can have a semblance of normalcy.
And I’ll also take some time for me. A day here. A half-day there. Hit the beach for a couple of hours and read a big people book (currently working on Love Warrior by Glennon Doyle). Paint a room. Spring cleaning. Exercise. Work on Happy Fix, because that also fills my teaching need.
While I hope that this historical time does not become a tragedy, it’s time to look for silver linings where, sometimes, there appears to be only rain. My silver lining is taking time to take a good hard look at things and honor what I am here to do. Teach. Love. And help others do the same.